the devil came in
hovering in empty spaces
watching and waiting
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Monday, April 25, 2011
trudge.
the turning point is ahead
but maybe we passed it going 80 mph
on a stretch of empty interstate
with the wind’s whistling chill
somewhere in rural Indiana
we hold on with white knuckles
life clutches us by the throat
pins us down in abandoned corners
forces us to beg for clemency
but we don’t know how to pray
it isn’t the picture we drew
house on the hill in red twilight autumn
we carefully hang our pressed clothes
in the back of the closet
losing hope of resurrection
© 2011 heather brager
but maybe we passed it going 80 mph
on a stretch of empty interstate
with the wind’s whistling chill
somewhere in rural Indiana
we hold on with white knuckles
life clutches us by the throat
pins us down in abandoned corners
forces us to beg for clemency
but we don’t know how to pray
it isn’t the picture we drew
house on the hill in red twilight autumn
we carefully hang our pressed clothes
in the back of the closet
losing hope of resurrection
© 2011 heather brager
words.
I have lost
my voice again
as hours escape
into binders filled
with wrinkled paper
these cold fingers
clicking messages
terminology, language, clichés
empty justifications
that cannot appease
the vacant judgments
so we start here
and end here
and somewhere in isolation
are the right words
© 2011 heather brager
my voice again
as hours escape
into binders filled
with wrinkled paper
these cold fingers
clicking messages
terminology, language, clichés
empty justifications
that cannot appease
the vacant judgments
so we start here
and end here
and somewhere in isolation
are the right words
© 2011 heather brager
Thursday, April 21, 2011
karma.
she must have been
his sinister mistress
assassinated by the hired man
or maybe the dignified wife
of an affluent baron
who hired him to do the deed
she must have been
the despised imperial queen
of rich lands far and wide
who beheaded droves of harmless innocents
for her malicious viewing pleasure
she must have been the dictator
with no mercy for his fellow human
or his murderous vixen devotee
who poisoned opposition for sport
behind bolted stronghold doors
© 4.21.11 heather brager
his sinister mistress
assassinated by the hired man
or maybe the dignified wife
of an affluent baron
who hired him to do the deed
she must have been
the despised imperial queen
of rich lands far and wide
who beheaded droves of harmless innocents
for her malicious viewing pleasure
she must have been the dictator
with no mercy for his fellow human
or his murderous vixen devotee
who poisoned opposition for sport
behind bolted stronghold doors
© 4.21.11 heather brager
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
pausing.
I wash my hands three times
wondering if they're clean
and pause twice,
smelling the soap
I ask myself if I washed them
I look out the back window
at mallard ducks in a pair
the male struts in his green iridescence
and I wonder
if their gender issues
affect their young this way
I forget
the conference this morning
turn right on red
leave the garage door wide open
my purse in the car
and my coffee is still
on the kitchen counter
I read somewhere once
that mallard ducks
mate for life
© 4.20.11 heather brager
wondering if they're clean
and pause twice,
smelling the soap
I ask myself if I washed them
I look out the back window
at mallard ducks in a pair
the male struts in his green iridescence
and I wonder
if their gender issues
affect their young this way
I forget
the conference this morning
turn right on red
leave the garage door wide open
my purse in the car
and my coffee is still
on the kitchen counter
I read somewhere once
that mallard ducks
mate for life
© 4.20.11 heather brager
Monday, April 18, 2011
another life in massachusetts.
there are swaying boats
at the cliff lines
light, diminishing ripe and muted
breeze, salty with slow heat
echoes across the steady,
yawning swells
you may have brushed my hair
away from my damp skin
deep in an early morning dream
pressed against my back in our
egyptian cotton sheets
© april 2011 heather brager
at the cliff lines
light, diminishing ripe and muted
breeze, salty with slow heat
echoes across the steady,
yawning swells
you may have brushed my hair
away from my damp skin
deep in an early morning dream
pressed against my back in our
egyptian cotton sheets
© april 2011 heather brager
Friday, April 15, 2011
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
lost.
the moon is staring at me
through the window
these dry walls and floor
have become my skin and bones
while I pray tenderness
can save me
we breathed a quiet life
into each empty carcass
while blind, blackened moments
hung us to die
with the skeletons in your closet
now it's 2:47 a.m. with howling wind
and you have abandoned
the white house on the hill
my art on the front lawn
the dead man at the side of the road
I am just the boat in your dream
and there is no saving you.
© 4.13.11 heather brager
through the window
these dry walls and floor
have become my skin and bones
while I pray tenderness
can save me
we breathed a quiet life
into each empty carcass
while blind, blackened moments
hung us to die
with the skeletons in your closet
now it's 2:47 a.m. with howling wind
and you have abandoned
the white house on the hill
my art on the front lawn
the dead man at the side of the road
I am just the boat in your dream
and there is no saving you.
© 4.13.11 heather brager
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
often, wishes.
the daylight lengthened
just before they passed by
walking shadows
stretching further
than they ever touched
sometimes they crafted perfect scenarios
the magnificent wealth
of stationary time
the rich smells of wood smoke
and dinner simmering
the twinkling house
on a maple covered hill
moments departed
and finally returned
creeping silently
through a damp darkness
before the sun came home
and they sipped
the morning coffee
recounting wishes
with clouds hanging low
and sweetness in the dew
© 4.6.11 heather brager
just before they passed by
walking shadows
stretching further
than they ever touched
sometimes they crafted perfect scenarios
the magnificent wealth
of stationary time
the rich smells of wood smoke
and dinner simmering
the twinkling house
on a maple covered hill
moments departed
and finally returned
creeping silently
through a damp darkness
before the sun came home
and they sipped
the morning coffee
recounting wishes
with clouds hanging low
and sweetness in the dew
© 4.6.11 heather brager
Monday, April 4, 2011
lessons.
when I was twelve or thirteen years old
I had a savings account
dollars pocketed watching neighbor’s kids
there were the two who locked me in their bedroom
and ate an entire box of jell-o pudding pops
while I climbed out of the window
to pound on the door across the alley
I bought new guess? jeans with the cash
saving all summer just so I could fit in
be one of the admired girls in school
they had football player boyfriends
and wore lipgloss and their mom’s mascara
but I drew pictures with pencils
and scribbled in a notebook
read catcher in the rye
and wore my dad’s army fatigue jacket
with hand-me-down running shoes
once I was cornered in the hallway
against the orange painted lockers
she was a full head taller
wore a pissed off grimace
and glittering blue eyeshadow
she vowed to kick my ass
and told everyone I called her names
while I looked her in the eye
and the truth is I tried to turn away
but somehow I couldn’t
I still don’t know why
she thought I was one of the popular girls
© 4.4.11 heather brager
I had a savings account
dollars pocketed watching neighbor’s kids
there were the two who locked me in their bedroom
and ate an entire box of jell-o pudding pops
while I climbed out of the window
to pound on the door across the alley
I bought new guess? jeans with the cash
saving all summer just so I could fit in
be one of the admired girls in school
they had football player boyfriends
and wore lipgloss and their mom’s mascara
but I drew pictures with pencils
and scribbled in a notebook
read catcher in the rye
and wore my dad’s army fatigue jacket
with hand-me-down running shoes
once I was cornered in the hallway
against the orange painted lockers
she was a full head taller
wore a pissed off grimace
and glittering blue eyeshadow
she vowed to kick my ass
and told everyone I called her names
while I looked her in the eye
and the truth is I tried to turn away
but somehow I couldn’t
I still don’t know why
she thought I was one of the popular girls
© 4.4.11 heather brager
Friday, April 1, 2011
where there's a will.
I sometimes hear voices reminding me to pay attention
touching my hair somewhere behind my right ear
more evidence that I might be unbalanced and fanatical
I stuff artificially lucky trinkets deep into my pockets
measuring with an imaginary ruler
hoping I don’t lose them somewhere through the holes
I rub dirty coins between my thumb and middle finger
tasting mint chapstick
and squint at the intrusive sunlight that burns
through my chipped windshield
I might be too far left of center
or too lost to find my way home
so I count the seconds between stoplights in Spanish
visualizing telephone poles balancing end to end
as they scrape the eastern nimbus clouds
© 4.1.11 heather brager
touching my hair somewhere behind my right ear
more evidence that I might be unbalanced and fanatical
I stuff artificially lucky trinkets deep into my pockets
measuring with an imaginary ruler
hoping I don’t lose them somewhere through the holes
I rub dirty coins between my thumb and middle finger
tasting mint chapstick
and squint at the intrusive sunlight that burns
through my chipped windshield
I might be too far left of center
or too lost to find my way home
so I count the seconds between stoplights in Spanish
visualizing telephone poles balancing end to end
as they scrape the eastern nimbus clouds
© 4.1.11 heather brager
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